I Love....

...with the End semesters on the head the mind does not allow to think about feelings, emotions but the heart cant wait longer, its time that the heart wishes to be all with me, my pen & my feelings..
Over the days, life has taken a real change around me, a different routine, different people to interact away from the group of batch mates that used to be together.
to me life has changed in a better way, but what's life with complete satisfaction...
...."All that is Gold does not GLITTER".....

"Search for un accomplishments to live on...
Whats the fun in living with all desires fulfilled"

"Har aarzu puri ho to jeene ka kya mazaa...
jeene ke liye ek kami ki talaash kar...."

I never had to search all this, my life runs parallel with the quotes, unfulfilled desires reside by my doorstep...

14051. I was denied a visit to my"homeland" - feels like homeland...
just a simple point out of the endless list (point no. to be noted)...

It was just the other day that i felt i was being used. I never wanted to think on that line, but the heart always wins on commanding the thoughts.

The world never wants to listen to my feelings...
the pen in my hand just gave u, but I wish to continue....

I felt like being taken advantage of my simplicity.. I waited for a friend for long on expense of being questioned at the court of my uncle, my local guardian.
I had done that a million times back home, I got this feeling of being cheated for the first time...

Q: Do people hear don't deserve this treatment?
(OR)
Have I become selfish?

Q: Does only true friend exist...?
..or even true friend's exist..?

lost in the thoughts, i wondered whether my decision to confront with the abnormalities of this place, in this manner was right or wrong?
The fact remains that I have never deceived a souls whom i brought close to my heart..
I don't have the history of changing my minds on people.

I wonder whether the world thought of this part of the friendship?

An applause requires two hands, a beginning needs an end, a relationship requires a couple,

Don't commitment's in friendship be supplied through both the inlet valves?
Why does always one person compromise?
Even fairy tales have it...
"... the dwarfs lived happily ever after after the efforts of the hunter, without which they could never exist in peace and harmony....
..The End.."

I remember reading these lines.. down the lane.....

Q: Can favours done be ever returned...
- favours by god
-favours by parents
-favours by siblings
-favours by friends....

It's only the faith on the friend that has let me live all these years, in spite of the situation being in antonym...
It's this faith that still makes me think.. whenever I sit alone...

Dear Friend,

"a footstep has echoed in my dreary room, i don't know who has come in my gloomy room,

..there remains a sense of abode, or who else would in a strange room..

..there is no one in my room yet, i feel i have left a guest in the room,

..the echo of your voice, jingles in my lifeless room..

..hardly do i get a place to sleep, often its filled with your possessions,

the garden were we had strolled, someone has thrown that garden in the room,

this room looks at me and, the pain becomes deeper in this isolated room.."

- itsme

but one thing shall be bear in mind before i call it signing off...

"Har haal mein denge saath aapka..

par..

mere is pyaar ko kamzori na samajhna..."

t'll then

signing off

me 'n mA loNe souL