Thinking..

It's been really long since the last time i thought about myself, a self instated exile has finally vanished, preferred in search of true values of life, eternal peace and serenity, with nothing turning out to be optimistic the last nail drilled on the empty coffin of hopes aspirations and admiration's.
.. n thus, I'm back !!
The air outside seem to have new vibes (i thought..) but my sixth sense quickly knocked me off the sleep over into the reality of this world. I thought that there would have been major changes since the experiment being conducted in the large hadron collider, the local newspaper almost predicted the end of the universe(i wished so..) but the life of my little spidey seems to be the same. Weeks after weeks he spins around a new web on the lower end of drawer ( cum ash-tray), he did seem to be disturbed during the period of the experiment, wonder if these creatures are angels in disguise..
Wondering at the changes around, the Americans celebrating the historic win on Barack Hussein Obama in the recent concluded presidential elections (i followed it quiet closely), the fall of major banking firms, the dripping economy, falling fuel prices, major bail outs, job cuts etc etc..
it's been quiet a happening for the media community, fuelling in a new life thereby retiring the news channels of the pesky cat fights of the film industry, routine fire crackers ( RDX, Ammonia, Nitrates, contained) etc..
.. looking further there's been quiet a change in the little world around me as well..
some are on the verge of looking into the new era of life (marriage), some trying to negotiate their dreams into realities (migrating to US for higher studies).. and many more, considering some of them that remain un informed.. hmph..
.. but some things in this are devoid of the sunshine, the new morning, the new beginning, the urge to evolve from the grave and transcend to the cradle..

I cried my heart out on the lanes running beside the Food point of my institution, as i was denied the least of the favours asked, a few minutes, a very little effort that would have least of all made me gay for the very next moment. I thought changes are in live are meant for both evil and good (everyone falls in either of the two categories.. but.. where am I ??).
aha.. suddenly the bronchitis seem to feel a different pressure inside me.. i sense an expiration (in terms of breathing)..
I saw off my little joy the other day on the airport terminal, the little excitement, support that kindled inside the lonely heart flew off the IC 883 sharjah bound flight, another promising soul ended the eight month long commitment, settling into it's own world of fantasies, a close family unit departed back to the home land (DXB).
The life long pals, no more seem to be interested in the fairy tales of friendship, the long linking thread has lost it's glitter. The prospects of better future, new pathways, better partners seem to justify the ageing of the previous bonds.
(Q: "Old is Gold" [still ??] ).. hmph..
Unfortunately (again), the new peers around me seem to be no delight, even after being the rightest of angels in all the deeds and works the hostile attitude has no signs of alteration. I wonder if I really deserve the punishment's ?? It's really odd when I'm forced to think about these age old, historic issues of my life in this rapidly developing era, but the more odd it seems ... more real it gets into my life..

However, the word count seems to be indicating a thousand which according to general pshycosis might eat up a few hundred thousand seconds to read and understand (the crap)..
.. seems quite a lot considering the busy schedules of the people..
Leaving this portal seems to be quiet heavy, after just a short stint, but its bound to happen. I hope to come back to you people soon.

Note: The views on this blog are totally personal. Anything objectionable is deeply regretted.
However, the fact remains that Truth always stands it's position..
Hope to reunite again.. for the dedication of "Smoked Souls"

Logging off..
mE 'n mA lonE SouL