A P A R T

WARNING : I AM RANTING

JAN 19th 2007... PREVIOUS Entry.

Today FEB 24th 2007.

They say that I am drifting.There is no doubt about that.
BUT, I am not doing it of my own accord.

I feel my purpose is over in most of the lives that have crossed with mine.
All of you have your own self sustainable lives now..

Some have new friends and some found love.
Some found escape in DRUGS and some lost their memories.

Everyone i know leads a new life.And i myself am trying to lead a new life.

I should technically be happy.After valentines especially.After all I did find love in MALLULAND(minus the oil,body hair and the georgian moustache!).
But i miss everything as usual but this time with a renewed sense of missation.

No one even bothers asking "MISHAL, ARE YOU ALIVE?!?"
Well, soon MISHAL will even cease to exist...

YES! I AM DEPRESSED and I need to go to rehab or something...

It is amazing to realize that if i rewind my life back by just 12 months the only worry i had was "Will i flunk the boards?" for which i usually replied as "Big deal...what happens then,max to max i get thrown outta home!"
I had an amzing life...amazing friends...amazing(????)gal...lived with my parents...ate sexy food...smoked tasty cigarettes...drank seldom.

PRESENT DAY SCENARIO : I want a life(not even amazing one, i am a humble dude), DO my buddies even remember, nice gal (she reads this she gonna kill me....im lyin sweety,for sympathy),parents live in another country,dont eat often,smokin beedi's on days and to top it all off - I am turning into an alcoholic!

I am a typical poster boy...only for those posters saying before/after and that too in the one's warning people about deadly diseases.

I was jus bugged with life and wanted to take it out...
SO i wrote a load of crap...

MeE

JB signin off...